I sometimes sit here in my recliner at night and just think....I am not tired...I don't feel like going to bed..and I just think.
The last couple of days here in Western PA, as with much of the Eastern half of the country has been experiencing a cold spell....well actually a Deep Freeze would better describe it...the temps here have not gotten above 26 the last couple of days...add in the wind and it is BUTT COLD out there. But, the one thing that I have noticed is that I am not affected by the cold air as I have been in the past.
I get to play Santa tomorrow night at a party...I find it odd that after having the transplant and losing almost 65 pounds that I still play Santa....a skinny Santa.
I have bowled the last 2 days in a row and will roll off with Evan tomorrow (after I play Santa) for our league....I like bowling and look forward to the different people that I bowl with....Tuesday is a group of transplant recipients, Wednesday is a mixed group of folks from 20ish to 70ish and we laugh a lot, and of course Sundays with Evan and his friends....I am really improving as is evident by my 187 game yesterday.
I wonder if G-d is going to fill me in on his plan for me...what else am I supposed to do in this world...how is my life going to impact on my fellow man?
I am excited for our trip to Israel and seeing old friends and meeting folks that I talk to on facebook and twitter...we have scheduled horse back riding and other fun activities...Sharon and I will be married in the Jewish faith while we are there...It will also be used by us to mark our 25th year of marriage, which really is not till June but we will cheat a little. I hope Evan enjoys it.
I guess what I sit and think about the most on nights like tonight when sleep does not want to come...is that I have been blessed in my life..I have good friends, family and co-workers...even though I sometimes Bitch and Complain about them. My health is better then it was and hopefully after meeting with the new Endocrinologist we will be able to get my sugar under control. I have my faith in G-d and while I sometimes feel that he is always testing me...I realize that it has been my faith ( Although it has changed...as I have changed) is a big part of my life.
So my wish for all of you is that you may find joy, happiness, health, love and blessings in your life...regardless of what troubles you are facing...if you have supportive people in your life you will be ok.. I really believe that G-d has a plan for each of us....it may not be what we want to do but it what G-d wants us to do.